James 1:5-6 ()
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. 6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. #Bible http://j.mp/sET1DH

1 Corinthians 10:13 ()
13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. #Bible http://j.mp/tx0DDC

If only i could steal your pain and and it to my own..

The burden is heavy but it’s the only thing I know.

If only I could take your heavy thoughts and worries and fears and throw them far far away never to be seen again.

If only i could tell you that you are too Precious of a being to be giving away your body to every boy who says you are beautiful, or some variation of that..

If only i could to you not to mess with that dude and you would listen to me..trust me when i say he is going to hurt you..

If only I could tell you So you don’t have to sleep around for money.. I’m your friend come to me! God put me in your life for some reason.

No im not like them and I know you’ve heard this last part before but…i promise im a good guy..or at least..

If only I could tell you stop drinking so heavy, throw away your razor blades, flush your pills down the toilet, stop doing drugs you are going to kill yourself!! If only I thought you would listen to me

If only I could tell you to put the gun down your life is not over just because you made mistakes

You can choose any time you want to be a new person you just have to stick with it no matter what.

What about your son are you gonna hurt him too? After all that you’ve been through? The two of you have been through? You just cant blow your brains out and take him with you kmow.. Now why would you do that!?!

Please don’t hurt yourself please don’t hurt him please just LISTEN TO ME!

You are very very loved you dont have to do do this you really dont. Sweety please give me the gun be for you hurt someone..
I know it hurts, i know what it is like to want to end it all because things are so hard and you feel like no one loves you.

I know what it’s like to hate the sound of your own name, to wish everyone would stop asking questions, to wish that that one.. person that one, one person! Would call you and calm you down like know one else could…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
Thats it baby just had it over…you dont need that weapon.. all you need is ourl ord god and jesus christ.

Its okay go ahead and cry your heart out untill it is empty just cry, cry and let it go..and when you are done get up and start your new life.

You really scared me this time dont ever do that again love one..you have a little boy to take care of after all.

Dont turn to suicide ever again it doesn’t help anyone… don’t be stupid, don’t be a fool……… don’t do what I did…

Why? Why am i so full of love and loyalty, generocity and curiosity, why am I so full of that arms wide open with a hint of foolishness type of love….for you?

You are so sweet and kind…to them, the ones who use you…
The ones that only want to fuck you.. the ones that you fell so hard for and they stepped aside and let you hit your beautiful little face on the pavement.

I was there…but you said no. I want to be there but you say no to me like i am the one who hurt / hurts you.

I felt so blessed to meet someone like you.. I felt like god could see the not so complex emptiness I had in me…i mean i was ok i guess but you really did seem to give a shit about me…so i was like “cool this could work”

But then it just had to happen. it just had to happen to me just when I thought I had Found a kindred heart.

I stoped lying to myself..god tilted my head up and forward and made me look you in the eyes.. as much is it hurts I can see you now…. I can really see you..

FUCK OFF!

Matthew 18:1-4 ()
18:1 At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven? 2 And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them 3 and said, Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. #Bible http://j.mp/tk6amB

Proverbs 27:5-6 ()
5 Better is open rebukethan hidden love. 6 Faithful are the wounds of a friend;profuse are the kisses of an enemy. #Bible http://j.mp/tFctRL

It is what it is…..is it? I

I can’t say anymore that i dont have real friends.

God has let me meet some really good people this year and in many ways they are a blessing to be around.

I only hope that we can be in each others lives as long as can be…if not forever.

Thank u!

Romans 5:1 ()
5:1 Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. #Bible http://j.mp/ezouhc

Is it at all possible to grow without pain?

I don’t think it is….because pain is needed in some form or another to grow. To become stronger, tougher, wiser,more loving,deeper,….

As much as it hurts my flesh and my soul i thank you my father in heaven for pain…for it brings me closer to you everyday.